As is often the case, therapy this week left us with lots to think about. Our overriding emotion is sadness – because things will never be the same again and we don’t like to be reminded of that.
The me of six years ago is gone, never to return. Life then was unstable, with no firm foundation, and was always going to fail. But we’d go back to that in a heartbeat. Rebuilding since then has taken – is taking – too long, and now we know – again – that it is likely to take forever. And forever is too long.
The me of a year ago is gone too, we don’t know where. As things shifted for us, so our world shifted. And it’s all we can do to keep things ticking over. Things that were once automatic now need prompting. Can we adapt to this as we have all the other changes, and stop yearning for what is gone? We don’t know.
So, as we prepare for bed and hopefully a lazy weekend, it is sadness that dominates. Sadness for what is gone and for what is still to come.