My CPN came yesterday and, in the course of our conversation, pointed out that I was focusing on what I can’t do rather than what I can. She was right – she sometimes is, you know – I was focusing on what I still find difficult. And it’s a very long list.
After she had gone, I stopped and thought about what she said – it takes a while for the penny to drop sometimes. Yes, there are lots of things I still can’t do and I need to work on them. But I also need to remember what I’ve achieved. With that in my mind, I pulled on my shoes.
I have been a little lax about going out lately, but things have conspired to keep me busy at home. But each time I leave the house is a little easier, and I have been out every day although mainly just to the corner shop. Now my daughter is back at school I have considerably more time.
Yesterday I strolled down to Asda, went to the cash machine and popped in for a few bits and pieces. I then headed back via the mental health department where I go to see my psych and loitered in reception for ten minutes – they’re used to me now, and my psych has told the receptionist what I’m doing – before setting off for home. It’s just under 1.5 miles in total. All things I couldn’t do before but can do now.
Today I’m taking my borrowed dog for a walk, and intend to see where my feet take me – she doesn’t mind where we go or how far – being aware and mindful and all the other things I’ve been taught and told to do. Looking at the weather, we’re going to get a little damp. And – note to self – be positive.