I started my therapy session yesterday morning by hugging my psych. I ended my appointment the same way, and she remarked how much progress I’ve made with physical contact. Afterwards I bumped into her secretary and, feeling so much better than the last time I saw her – I was hugely anxious and pretty miserable -I requested a hug from her too which she gave me.
Not too long ago I didn’t hug anyone except my daughter – any request for a hug by my psych or OT was met with reluctance and dithering on my part. Now, I find myself actively asking my psych, her secretary, my CPN for hugs. I get such a lot from that contact, and until fairly recently I didn’t even know what I was missing.
I’m still a long way from tactile or touchy-feely, but I’m learning the power of touch – see here for an earlier blog post on this – and I can see a small bit of grey in my black and white world. My team are safe, their hugs are good. Tangible progress that others can see too.