On Tuesday my CPN mooted that the anxiety I have been experiencing might be a new part coming forward. I told her that I didn’t think it was because this isn’t how my other parts arrived, to which she asked why it would be the same. I couldn’t answer her.
Yesterday my psych suggested the same thing and I had no reply other than this feels different.
However, I was calmer in therapy yesterday than I have been for the past two weeks – although I still talked too much which is becoming a bad habit, and I’m still pacing which must leave my psych with a stiff neck from watching me. And I noticed a distinct reduction in my anxiety last night too.
The other thing that happened last night was that I was kept awake by someone whistling in my left ear, intermittently, the kind of whistle you might use to attract someone’s attention. The whistle itself wasn’t familiar but all my parts so far have announced their presence by calling my name and always in my left ear. I blogged about that way back in December – you can find that post here.
Maybe my team are on to something. Maybe it is a new part coming forward to join my ‘system’. I don’t know yet, can’t get any sense of who or what it is. I am merely grateful to be less anxious, and glad my CPN and my psych have stuck by me. If it is a new part that’s fine with me, I’ve been expecting others to reveal themselves as things progress.
I’m already a multiple, and now it’s a case of the more the merrier.