I don’t like the word ‘system’ as a description of me and my parts. It sounds too mechanical, too artificial, too false. And yet there doesn’t seem to be a better word out there.
I have run through various options – a community, commune, kibbutz but they all give the impression of harmonious living and I’m far from that. A blend, a fusion – too much like food, although there is a link to my favourite drink of tea. An amalgamation – no, it is all still too fractured for that.
It looks like I am stuck with ‘system’ for the time being and I take comfort from the fact that although it sounds artificial and false my psych reassured me yesterday that me, my symptoms and my parts are absolutely what she would expect to see and that it isn’t all in my head.
I have seen other people name their systems but that isn’t something I am particularly drawn to. I will eventually find a description that works for me, for all of me. Until then, its me and my ‘system’ muddling on as best we can.