Today is a blue sky day. Literally and figuratively, the sun is shining on and in my world. The housework is done, studying can wait. I’ve shed my jumper and I’m sitting in the garden. My garden is a mess so I have my back to it, but I’m still enjoying the down time.
The guinea pigs are out in the run chomping on the grass, there is washing on the line, my windows are open, internally and externally I am content. It is a good day to be alive. I know this will be short lived – the weather will change, I will need to study, things will not always be this stable. But I see it as a sign for the future, that I won’t always be so tortured by head noise, triggers and flashbacks. That there will, one day, be a way to live with, and as, a ‘system’ that isn’t all about conflict.