I am acutely aware that today is my last appointment with my psych for three weeks. Normally I would take it as a chance to regroup, ground and prepare myself and my parts for the break. However, after yesterday, I know there is work to be done and my plans for an easy session have gone out the window. I need to walk a fine line between bringing up stuff I can’t finish and sorting what has been happening.
I am also without my CPN for just over two weeks so anything that is done today needs to be properly packed away if I am to get through the Easter holidays unscathed. K is at home with me for almost the whole time. An hour doesn’t seem anywhere near long enough – I haven’t been right since I went to the dentist some weeks ago.
The good news is that whatever stalked me yesterday and stole my time seems to have moved away from the front. Today I am most aware of the part who likes my psych more than me, who I am sometimes able to be co-present with in session. She is young but I am used to her now even though we don’t like each other much. It is her that I need to work with to understand what has been going on, so it’s good to feel her nearby.