Today I saw my psychologist and we did some difficult work that I won’t discuss here. But it wasn’t until I spoke to my CPN that I was able to start putting together the pieces of my missing day on Tuesday. I know now who was with me and where I was, and what caused me to lose so much time. To the two members of CMHT who came and helped me, thank you.
Now I am preparing myself for the appointment at the dentist on Tuesday morning. No amount of work with my psych or my CPN will make it any easier, I know that and they do too. But my psych came up with a few ideas which I discussed with my CPN over the phone. She is going to contact the dentist and explain that the person she is bringing – that would be me – is, for reasons she can’t disclose, incredibly nervous and we would be grateful if they could try to not keep us waiting too long. She is also trying to tweak her diary or find someone else so I have someone with me as I come down from the triggers which will be a huge help.
I know I’ve said it several times before but my CPN is a little bit fab. They all are – my CPN, my psych, CMHT, the admin staff, everyone. I know how lucky I am to have them, and I fight every day so I don’t let them down. I hope I never do.